Sunday, August 17, 2008

CONGRATS SINGAPORE!

Just finished! TT Final.

like I've said,
I wont be too sad.
I guess disappointment shldnt be the reaction to our sports HEROINES too!
They've put in their best and a Silver medal finally since 48 yrs ago!
which was only a Bronze,
This is FAR BETTER!!!

Debates always thr abt whether thr shld be NDP,
I guess the answer is clear aft tonite,
nth for now may be better as a gift to Singapore than a Medal at OLYMPIC!
I believe it brought the nation tgt and pride instilled into us all.

---

OK, the Silver medal up on members of Team Singapore!
The moment is GREATGREATGREAT RUSH!!!
*Touched*
I thnk it's great pity for any SINGAPOREAN to miss this moment!
PROUD as EVER!!! JIAYOUU!!!

Labels: PROUD

9:39 PM

BEIJING OLYMPIC

My promise made was unbroken I guess.

Olympic was fantastic!

Gymnastic,
Women all-around individual competition-
with Yang Yilin of China, Bronze,
Shawn Johnson of U.S., Silver ,
and Nastia Liukin of U.S. too, Gold.
They were great!

Swimming,
great swimmer, Michael Phelps,
8 medals till tdy in Olympic 2008!
Excellent job I've to say.

OK, I thnk high jump is cool and nice to watch :)

Now comes to Table tennis!
Grats to Team Singapore consisting of:
LI J W, FENG T W and WANG Y G
A Silver for sure! Singapore!
OK, against China, I've to say is gonna be tough not only for them, but for me too!
Mixed feelings on who to support.
Now you see, both my hometown i shld say.
But maybe easy for me cos whn either wins,
I believe my joy for the winning team shall be > my sadness for the losing one!
In any way, I do hope tt Singapore team will do us proud and
I oready believe they did!
Team Singapore ROCK ON!

Umm, now abt common test..
(Sry for this spoiler?)

Hist was hopefully not bad..
Hope to get 23/35, B3 for once, at least...

Eng was ok la, just randomly ansed the qs,
shld be passable. HAHAx!

SS was quite imbal for me whn I only studied ASEAN and not UN,
and the QS for Thnking QS was:
Is it essential for Singapore to join UN?
Somethng lyk tt.
Dead I thot but I guess perhaps MAYBE can scrape thru with a 20/35, tt's C5.

Haiz, nth to regret or look bak le!
:) smiles on and ready for my Sciences + Maths! and Chi?
Ok, off to revise le.. Thn watch tonite's TT final!

5:23 PM

Monday, August 11, 2008

I'm back

Hi everyone! I'm back!

Aft so long, I've went thru damn lots.
Aft Penang trip:

RVC Heardz concert.
Heardz- The frequency HERTZ made by RVC to be HEARD by all of you!
Tho first day quite screwed but the second day was not bad!
Proud of RVC! XD

Italy.
GOLD for mixed category
SILVER for sacred category
All the gelato and cold season..
Still missing them..

Exam results.
GPA 2.9
Wat lousy results.. :'(
Sian.. W/o Hist,
My result suppose to be 3.2-3.3
Stupid Hist, C6...

Went for many Choir Concert.
NJ, HC, AJ, AC.
All well done!
WAY TO GO~! RVC snrs! xD
Proud of you all!

Formation of RVC comm '08/'09.
I've absolute faith in this comm tt's taking over!
Rly hope tt they'll do their best.
Tho thr may be prob but I hope they'll learn thru ppl's feedbacks,
do reflections and make proud achievements! xD

Formation of RVCS.
Wif every RVC Sec 4s '08 staying on, it's the best thng tt i can flaunt abt!
Along wif the new Nice NICE nice members:
Jhosy, Shuyu and Qiuhe,
We will be undefeatable!
SYF '09! Here we come!

German Choir Concert.
So fab tt it stand a position on this post.
Wif 22 members only, they put on a FANTASTIC performance!
Thr was the counter-tenor. Imbal falsetto.
The sops sounded lyk they are just singing some C notes whn it's actually..
High A, B, C!!!
The bass wif the santa was great too! XD
The Sops sound easy, Altos sound soothing, Tenors sound calming, Basses sound strong.
Great COMBINATION! tt's the CHOIR man! xD

RV NDP '08 celebration.
Leading in community singing was a fear for me due to my stage-fright.
Hey but thx loads to everyone for their high-ness!
Managed to overcome the fear.
Enjoyment on stage!!!

Beijing Olympic Opening Ceremony.
Fantastic drumming.
So neat, is fab la!
Then the raised Olympic Rings.
Damn cool!
And the dance+paint was interesting!
The blocks moving up and down.
Proud of those ppl who made this done so well!
The puppet show seems lyk an easy job but imagine doing it on a moving platform.
I've to either praise those puppet masters for their stbility
or praise those who carried them, making the platform so stable!
The waving of the big fan-looking thng is great.
Thr's so much coordination la!
Wif the globe tt has ppl walking lyk it's anti-gravity
Veh astonishing.
The singing of the Olympic Theme song was nice too!
The guy has such open and clear voice.
The lady has beautiful voice singing in mandarin whn she's not a Chinese.
Well SANG!
The Tachi was excellent.
Each move was so precise and uniform.
The changing in formation didnt at all spoil the formation.
Thn the entrance of all participants of Beijing Olympic.
Lastly, the passing of the Olympic Torch
wif Li Ning "running" on the wall
wif the expanding scroll and finally lighting up the Final Olympic Torch.
Damn %$@#@@^#^^%$. Not vulgarities! But praises tt I cnt put in words!
As a China-born Singaporean, I always have pride in China's achievements.
Way to go CHINA! PROUD as EVER!!! XDDDDDD

NDP '08 @ Marina Bay.
Happy?
Shld be ba but quite sian cos I miss NDP '07 @ Marina Bay!
Ok la, quite cool this yr abt the changes made in those songs.
The Home was nice!
We are Singapore is damn damn nice too!
<3 it!

A series of Olympics competitions.
Wif the fabulous gymnastic.
China in lead! ^-^
Woah damn interesting.
Thn coming frm the swimming,
Singapore Tao Li did us Singaporean Proud
by breaking the Asia record for Butterfly style swim.
Came in 5th for final is a pride for Singaporean! XD
Tao Li, you'll always be Singaporeans' Pride!!!
Thn from Badminton,
Ronald Susilo lost to Chong Wei frm Malaysia in the 32s.
Tho is a defeat but nth beats than not trying!
We can all see your hardwork Ronald!
Now, for our tables-tennis team:
GO ALL THE WAY! NO PRESSURE! JUST ENJOY AND YOU'LL ALL BE OUR PRIDE!!!
Ok, enough reports.

Erm, lastly lyk to say tt gg to be stress for nxt few weeks until EOY exam over.
JIAYOUU to me and all RV Sec 4s!!! xD
Maybe the only entertainment before the end of all stress will be SYC concert.
It on the 31st Aug!
Ms Tham HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend! Support to her too!
Till thn, adios!

(Not gonna give up watching BEIJING OLYMPICS! Everyone shld do so too!
Tho it's common tests period! O.o)

6:57 PM

Sunday, January 27, 2008

Missing it...

Lots to blog actually.
But always feel sian etc.
Same for tdy.
So, i'll just blog the current.
The past shall be up ltr...

Sianz...
Missing, missing, missing,
EVERYTHNG!
PENANG!!!
Miss the hotel, the bus and the eatery places.
Tho may not be as gd quality as staying at own home,
The feeling just linger..
Hope to go thr once agn.
RVCO will be gg in June.
To Chung Ling High too! :)
Hope tt they'll enjoy lyk I did!
Haiz.. late lo, I btr run and slp now.

bb.

Love last tho you're lost...
(Anw, congrats to you.)

12:36 AM

Thursday, December 27, 2007

The closed door...

The door closed.
And they are no longer visible or audible.
Emotions flooded in even stronger.
Felt little lost and weird.
Somewhat sad and unbearable.

Thot these shld be wat it felt lyk half a yr back but it din happen.
Nvr expect it to happen lyk now and it did, much worse than expected.
This is totally ridiculous.
I thot I'll nvr will feel anythng aft all those past incidents but still 3 yrs are time and is long, solid time.
The feeling is just regretful and nasty.
Sianz.

Will miss and rmb.
Passion for the common thing we've all once been in tgt shall burn on forever.

"For tears are meant for everlasting parting,
I’ll never tear because I know you’ll be back.
And you want to be back…" :)

Must come back K! First Friday! A promise. x)

10:17 PM

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Scary morning.

OMG! From now on, I'm nvr gonna consciously go back to slp anymore...
Wat a freaky morning just 'cos I woke,
got off bed, thot tt it's too early and went back to slp.

Woke up at lyk 5.45 due to alarm.
Went to off the alarm thn realise tt no need to wake up so early,
so went back and slp.
Slept for an extra 1/2 hr and i dreamt of the most traumatising dream ever tt I rmbed.
I dreamt abt someone getting cancer, final stage.
Don't wish to say the name but for those frens whom i've told tis incident to,
I wish to hear nth of it aft this post, freaks me out totally.
But just weird tt I cried badly in my dream,
'cos the person isnt lyk someon tt I rly lyk.
Perhaps, at the brink of life and death, thngs are naturally forgivened and understood.
Aye, but anw, now I thnk tt person is ok.
So, glad lor.
Ok, cont.
Thn I woke up, relieved tt it's a dream.
Went to kitchen and toilet, both the time whn I turned on the light, it lagged.
And first time, in kitchen, whn the light is on-ed,
I saw this damn huge lizard on the kitchen wall right in front of me,
nth much but just a lil stunned.
Tt's ok, but whn in toilet, just b4 the light was on-ed,
I felt somethng crawl over my foot,
and whn the bathrm is lighted, I saw this cockcoach.
Wat the damn!
And I took 963E, E! EXPRESS! and I was late.
WTF!!!
Only if I din went back to slp.
Ok, lesson learned, traumatised, fine.
lol.

9:05 PM

Saturday, October 27, 2007

A picture took with my dearest RVChorale and the all-male Renner Ensemble Regensburg! XD

Whoa, thx to my Camera! XD
Thx to Liang Ying, Si Zheng and Ms Tham too!
There came this photo!

This ensemble is great.
Their overtone totally overwhelmed me.
Yea, Ms Tham, the aim of overtone! :)

To my RVChorale,
Must work towards tt goal of OVERTONE!
It's gonna be a tough and long journey but we'll aim for it!
We can do it, with the Strength in our discipline and the Pride in our singing.
Jiayouu! <3 ya all!

6:25 PM

Friday, October 26, 2007

Farewell Camp '07 planning

CampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCampCamp...
How long am I suppose to endure this?

Ppl relunctant to do, to meet, to help, to sacrifice.
Sianz...
Pissed oso no use.
Ppl go meeting, listen to MP3, AP, Sleeping, Digressing, Daydreaming, Cnt even rmb wat happened etc. etc.
Stupid.
Feel lyk an idiot.

Burnt 2 midnight oils planning jobscopes and work plan.
Burnt 3 Midnight oils doing actual planning.
And now,
Just burnt another midnight oil re-doing proposal.
Nvm, cnt blame u peeps.
Perhaps my instruction is unclear, i dont speak properly for ppl to comprehend.
I sound some shit tt deserves no hearing...
Forget it lor.
Blame no one but myself, for being borned to be a poor speaker.
Tried helping so much by making templates, set nicely for u guys but, i end up carrying a stone and smashed my own feet.
Dumb me.

Nvm, I'm still not done wif the damn proposal but it cnt be done anw, Mr Ong oso drags me on and on.
I'm just gonna wait for morn to come and i'll finalise wif him.

Anw, this Sat, i want a comm meeting, Comm members who saw this listen up:
If you thnk it is a waste of time, dont go, i dont wish to see hypocrites irritating my emotion and angering me.
Sry, but all this fatigue has made me too impatient and i'm worn out.
This comm meeting is held, come or not, up to u.
But if u r coming, nvr show tt AP face, or else, dont blame me.

*Pissed*, I am.

3:20 AM

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

SAD...

Sec 4 snrs! Must JIAYOUU for 'O's and don't disappoint us! XD
Come back often too! Love and miss ya all always!

Next is haiz... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...
我终于把眼泪给流完了。
和母亲吵了一架，让我把所有的痛都给释放了。
今天是我哭得最痛苦的一天，浑身麻了，痛也暂时没了。

P.S.
My love for you shall be laid down
The pain in me shall leave just the way the way you left,
Unaware of my existence and unable to hurt me by intention.
I thank you of your ignorance.
It hurt me less to see you continuing your journey without giving me any special attentions.
At least you came silently, and left silently...
I will wish you all the best. Love you always...

8:45 PM

Saturday, October 06, 2007

My Heart Will Go On

My Heart Will Go On
Singer：Celine Dion
(from Titanic)

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on.
Far across the distance
and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

Love can touch us one time
and last for a lifetime
And never let go till we've gone.
Love was when I loved you,
one true time to hold on to
In my life we'll always go on.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more, you opened the door
And you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on.

You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on.
We'll stay, forever this way
You are safe in my heart
and my heart will go on and on.

8:47 PM

Last Day...

jiayouu RVC sec 4s! Will be missing you! :')
All the best for 'O's! Excels!
MUST come back orh! :)

8:30 PM

Over!

Finally over liao and I'm back! XD

This two weeks has been my pia-iest time of my life and still my maths seems lyk a spoilage tho my physics is lyk some sort of miracle. lol. nvm.

Ytd went to Jeanette's house to watch Secret! XD love it!
Still finds it sad...
But realise tdy tt it isnt so sad afterall.
Cos TITANIC is lyk OMG!!!
Is sad sorrows?
Is lyk:
"You jump, i jump..."
"I just realised I knew..."
"You will die in bed, warm. Not here, not this way..."
"Promise me... I'll promise..."
"I'll never let go..."
Every sentence is more than just a sentence, is love.
Undying love.
Bitter love.
Sorrow love.
And, is just tt
My Heart Will Go On...

Haiz, emo but the White Chicks totally high-ed me...
Is OMFG!
Disgustingly funny!
Listen to the convo and look at how they act,
is totally hilarious!

Woah! 3 movies in 2 days, record of my life so far. HAHA! XD
Diamond is so gonna rock!
Love ya!

8:10 PM

Friday, September 14, 2007

Update lag...

HeyYo! Peeps! :)
Last post for the time being...
Won't be updating for a month or so! XD
MUGGING!!!

Tags Replies:
Silver~ Jiayouu wif ur piano! Can one la. :)
Hazel~ Stop spamming... Yeayea, u rock! :D
Jennings~ Yea! Orange rulez! XD
Siewlin~ Stop spamming lyk a MADCOW! HAHA!
Jonathan~ Yeayea, is u! is u! XD And yea, MUG ON!
Amanda~ Hey, Sec 1 no need mug la. Can slack and lag, so gd...
Ade~ HI! First time see u tagging at moi blog! X) Yea, we'll all JIAYOUU! All the best to you for your Prelims and 'O's! :)
Germ~ You oso stop SPAMMING!!! Rahh-
Amanda~ Yeayea. Updated! X) Last for time being!

Disclaimer:
NO SPAMMERS ALLOWED! HAHA! lol...

11:17 PM

Friday, September 07, 2007

Sianz...

Tdy's prac is lyk 'woah', 'er', 'wat the' etc.

Morning was a contradiction all over.
Rite at the start was lyk:
Woah! (Sohran Bushi)
And thn it became:
Er... (Walking Song)
Followed by:
OK la... (O-Re-Mi)
Lastly:
ERM, LOL! (Octects)

lol! Contrast.
But aftnoon was gd except for the tenors at the start...

If you guys are continuing ur journey as a follower,
don't blame me...
I'm BLOODILY pissed! DX
This is hell sian la!
Is not lyk my teaching sux or unclear..
I noe you guys a lil slow and always unfocused,
so I did slowly during sectional tt time le rite?
Wat's this of forgetting everythng and needing to get taught all over agn?
Maybe I suck la. Tt's why.
But seriously,
If all you guys noe is to follow and not wanting to sing out,
thn DON'T sing.
There's NO free lunch!
RRRRRRRRh!!!

Anw, whn Ms Tham came, thngs went on a lot better!
It's lyk tenor finally can progress on.
We managed to lyk pg3?
Haiz..

Got 'Monthects'?
Ok, it means octects by birthdates in terms of monthly basis.
And it's lyk a shit for me...
I entered a whole prt wrong la! FREAK!
Some more I blasting cos I soloing Tenor agnst other sections, IMBAL!
And OMG! Calvin Goh, my ex-buddy, is lyk a PRO!
He PASSED as a soloist!! XD

Thn we did some fun rhythmic games.
Is quite entertaining.
Lyk playing some sort of focus game, just lyk playing concentration..
HAHA!

Thn ended the session lyk a lil lil earlier than scheduled..
Tok to Ms Tham and CONGRATS Zinc! XD
You noe wat I mean! Yea! JIAYOUU K! :)

Subsequently went back to Music Rm to return the keyboard and Conductor Stand.
Is lyk lagged in it for another whole full hr.
I was playing piano wif Ruth and Mave.
Char, Veron, Jonneh, Siewlin, Cass and Sizheng were lyk some madcows, playing Monkey lyk playing erm, nvm.
The hysterical laughters was horrid!
And thn tok to Char and SZ thn went home.

Went to BPP wif Ruth and Mave.
I got my new specs, Black and Orange! XD
Ok la, i thnk just lyk common and not rly anythng special but ok la.
I lyk can liao.
Thn ate TAKO! :D Drank Pearly 'hand-squeezed' milk. Ooops, worng. XD
Ya, anw.
Tt ended my day.
Ok la, quite a gd day...

Anw, now to tok abt a person.
I seriously now cnt be bothered wif wat u'll feel and thnk.
If u read this and hate me, so be it...
I'm saying this as a fren.
Or else i wouldnt bother.
U noe tt u have AP.
I told u b4, ur fren told u b4.
But it doesn't take ur mouth to prove to JUST ur fren tt u arent wat ppl perceived la.
PLS, can u just change.
And dont act lyk a mama saying all those crap lyk:
Is my character wat, why must I change for thm?
But the pt is, IT'S IRRITATING!
Pls reflect la.
Actually I noe u do reflect but can u reflect and make use of thm?
Not reflect for shuang and act still lyk u r.
It's bloodily even more irritating.
And stop confining ppl to how u judge thm thru incidents tt disturbed u.
They have their style, they do things a way u don lyk and they need not change cos they don have attitude.
They may be doing thngs a lil stubborn and slower etc. but tt doesnt make u have the rite to slam thm and AP thm.
Cos is their style and they don affect u.
But ur case is tt u have attitude.
And pls,
Can u lyk noe tt u r wrong and change whn ppl tell u?
Not blame the person who is kind enuff to bother to tell u?
Is ur life, yes, and no one can/shld interfere.
BUT...
Is your attitude tt affect ppl ard u.
Unless u can do it to the extend of being AP and pissed w/o ifluencing ppl ard u.
Unless u can do it to the extend tt u need of no others to support ur AP thnking.
I will thn be the first in the world to heck ur attitude.
But u cnt do tt!
So why not change urself for the better of the ppl ard u?
Haiz.
I dno la.
I wouldnt AP you anymore for ur attittude unless u go overboard.
Hope u'll understand my point.
I can only do this much as a fren, the rests is up to u...

Anw, tdy's a beautiful day... Tralalas (Sense a person lingering ard?) XD

11:39 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Mugging! XD

Tdy went Jonneh's house to MUG!
EOY's round the CORNER!!!
HAHA.
At first I was lyk slacking.
Thn aft tt went to hardcore physics alone while Veron, Char and Jonneh mugged Bio.
Haha!

Haiz, Diamond and Silicon..
Wat a joke..
Anw, was lyk blog hopping at the end.
We were lyk stuck at this quite sadistic wif full EMO stuff blog.
lol.
Is lyk a joke.
Thn went to this Milk Carton story blog.
LAME lyk hell.
Ok la but story quite innovative...

Whn abt to leav, tok abt a fren in need.
HAiz... I wont mention hu but, you must rly take care and stop deluding yourself.
You are the best and thr are ppl loving you..
Must JIAYOUU K! X)

And, I love you past and then, present and now, future and ever...
Sadded...

I won't hurt anyone anymore... NEVER!!!

Haiz, mugging... hope things will be fine...
Rainbow aft storm.
Hope it happens soon...

10:42 PM

Sunday, September 02, 2007

Housewarming

Housewarming...
FUN! Kel you rox totally!
Thx for the wonderful day at your house!
Made me find the 2Dom feel back! :D

Great la.
Anw, his house is damn big and nice.
4 storeys of design and decor! NICE! XD

10:39 PM

Friday, August 31, 2007

Teachers' Day + Secret!

Whoa! Performance was cool.
RVC Sec 3s ok la.
Well Done! XD

I sang Breaking Free and Superman!
Dueted with Mingshin for the former and solo-ed for the latter.
I thot my singing voice sux (as my mum said so)
So not rly confident la...
Haiz, love singing but no talent to sing.
No hope.
Lyk Miss Ek said:
"Art and music is talent ma.
If no talent, I cant possibly force the talent in!"
True.
Haiz, I'm talentless...
lol.

Anw, thot tt RVDS did us proud.
Lyk they always did.
Their self-choreographed dance was superb! XD
Great Job!

The teachers' performance oso not too bad.
Mr Wong's singing's ok la.
Gary seems high! HAHA.
Ok, is not he high but the rest lyk dead la..
Haiz..
As for the 'shhh'-ing dance.
Quite good!
Fascinated by how well they can dance! :D
Mr Ong's dance move was good.
Sharp and smooth. :D
All in all, good la.

2C and 2D's performance gd oso.
2C's performance is lyk originated partly frm me..
I'm lyk the co-directed of the skit with Germ, the singer!! :D
Not bad. Funny and Funny!

2D, once agn performed! :D
Proud of 2D sia.
They sang quite well.
In such a big grp and the guitarist did well! :)

Ok la, the Teachers' Day celebration's lyk not too bad.
Except tt the PA seems to have lil bit of prob.
But the PA members put in their best to save the situation.
And they did well.
Great thx to thm.
W/O thm, performance wont be possible at all... :)

Ok. Tt's all for celebration...

WHOO! Secret!
Totally rock my day off man!

Left sch with Jeanette and Kelvin.
Thn met up wif Mingshin.
Whn gg up bus, is lyk S-H-I-T, I forgot to claim my EZ-link card frm GO.
Stupid me.
HAHA!
Thn while gg back to get it, saw Ruth, so dragged her along.

Aft tt went to cineleisure wif Jeanette, Ruth, Kelvin and Mingshin.
Ate Long John aft some round of DUMB coin toss..
Wadde, ate lyk 7++ bucks.
Haiz...
Thn, went over to HMV store and watched X-Men III.
Bloody shit, halfway gonna end liao, cut off the show.
Tricking us to buy the disc, go to hell la...
Anw, Siewlin and Jonneh joined in during thn.
(By now we bought all the tix liao)

Thn at 3.20p.m. le, still got peeps haven arrive. WAT SAI LA!
So we lyk late for 10 min?!?!
Haiz, a lil pissed but still the show too overwhelmingly gd to be still pissed.
HAHA!
The movie totally rox man!
I've seriously got to say tt this show require high intellectual to totally appreciate and understand the logic within the illogicality (IRONY?)
lol.
Ya lor.
Must watch to test lvl of intellectual. HAHA! XD
The VCD/DVD is a must buy for me!

Whoo.
A whole day of joys and excitement finally comes to an end.
Hope it'll last on forever...

不能说的秘密-
不听音乐的人，就是坏人。。。
Secret-
Return lies in hasty keys...

How I wish these were true...

11:48 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Wish nvr to see you agn...

FIRST, WIsh my BRO, SZ Koh:
HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY!!!
Love ya always! :) Happy but SERIOUS all the time! XD

Tdy went to make Tchrs' Day gifts for our DEAREST RVC Conductors and ---Teachers...
Did a vase thngy and a card using a round cork kinda thng(sounds wrong). lol.
Thot it'll take long and just screw...
BUt,
Thngs turned out well!
2 strangers actually commended on our 'parkinsonic' artworks!
Thx to Zinc, Char, Cass, Siewlin, Mave, Germ, Yujun and Mingshin!
Well done!
To:
Mingshin~ Sry for having you coming down for lyk NTH but thx for putting in the effort!
Yujun~ For lending us your table to deposit the corky cards! X)
The rest~ For helping out!

But still as usual, I'm always a man of life w/o full happiness...

Stop the teasing please. I dont care if it deems as wat it seems but it isnt!
She and I have nth but plain frenships...
(Sry Yujun. But u woke me up. U appeased me. U helped me.)
(Zinc, I'm not angry wif u. U did nth to anger me. Rly.)

Anw, it's a bloody wrong day and time whn I'm pissed and you appeared (twice).
Of all times to appear, u appeared thn.
Whn I'm thnking of you...
Why issit so coincidental?
Nth's in my way, yes.
But still, i cnt see the way...
Lost in the mind of misses and sadness.
I miss you.

And the misses floods beyond to all tt left.
Haiz, yes, Zinc, we will miss the joy of doing all those things tt we've been doing since last yr till now whn we leave.
And these saddened me alot cos it makes me start to miss actually, not just doing the projects.
BUT, doing it wif thm...
Now tt they've left, we'll soon leave too... SAD X(

Lyk i mentioned last post:
Dreaming NOSTALGICALLY
It's getting stronger each day...
Can I just go back to the life of my 13rd yr?
I rly miss a lot of thngs back thn...

OK, on a happier tone, I've gotten the song which best suit my range except for the falsetto prt. MUST train! :D

P.S. Jhawnette, you came and I din see you!?!?!? lol.

10:56 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sianz..

Bored w/o a thng to move on to except the DAMN exams.
Nvr borer thn tis.
Wanna watch 'Secret", no time.
Wanna go out wif frens, forbiddened.
Wanna go Choir, no prac.
Wanna do anythng oso cnt.

Haiz, u've been less within my sight for a wk.
Din see you.
Thot it'll be a gd thng tt you've left but...
NoStAgIc feelings. Missing you and the rests.
Total emptiness at heart.

Maybe it's time to stop day dreaming and start looking out for goals in my pathetic life...
Nth's worth me living on for now.
Nth's worth me...
Perhaps, I'm worth of nth...

daydreaming nostalgically...

4:38 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007

NDP 9-8-7!

HAPPY (3-hr belated) BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

NDP '07,
Forever memorable...
Cos I celebrated it as a participant!
With all my loveliest RVC-mates.

Now abt wat's b4 on-stage:
Went to VIVOCITY at 11a.m. for Comm Meeting.
Ok la. quite effecient.
Surprisingly not much digression! :)

Thn, went to change into NDP-sky costumes.
Took bus to school and gathered RVC.
Up bus to NDP @ Marina Bay!
Upon reaching, we waited at our holding area.
Hair-styling, make-ups, KFC!, cookie and cream/ chocolate ice-cream.
Loads of joys even b4 on-stage.
With ppl video-taping ard.
Sewei did the GAY? dance?
LOL! :D
Thn, finally off to on-stage!

Now on-stage:
The experience was such an amazing one.
The joy and high-ness within it is 'in-describe-able'
We sang, screamed, smiled, laughed, joked etc. etc. etc. tgt!

Thx, my first-ever jnr buddy!
SZ Koh!
U rock sia!
Joking ard. Making me smile thruout...
Yea, "is just a man, nth spec.", "carbon monoxide", "spoiling camera".
FUNNY YOU! :)

Yo, Buddy cum Idol!
DF!
U improved le!
U din jump! lol.

Oh ya, a few jumpy ppl tt I saw:
1) Tsz Kiu
2) Germaine (LAGGED)
3) Cherie (LAGGED)
(Only Tsz Kiu's jumps was GENUINE! :D)

Anw, there r some:
1) GRUMPY-faces
2) SLEEPY-faces
3) JAW-LOCKED-faces
Not interested in mentioning WHO...
But I AM pissed... nvm.

Towards the end, it was SUPER-DUPER high!
The Medley part:
With the funny-atrocious choreographing of Zinc and I.
Not bad la, at least we R alive. LOL!

Now off-stage:
Water indeed brings life.
Just lyk THE LITTLE RED FISH said so!
We 'majoritily' took water-drinking as priority b4 high-ing ard.
Haha!

Oh ya, received a few msgs frm ppl who cared abt me! :)
(in arrangement of time!)
1) Qin Xinyi. Yea thx, I noe I've done a gr8 job! HAHA!
2) Yanneng. Yea, is just for us! :)
3) Melissa. Gladest msg received: "RVC did us proud!"
4) Xiang Lonn. Whoa, saw me 2 times, u counted? lol!
5) Irene Lee. Rite, can have a gd slp le! Thx!
6) Charlene Koh. Another glad msg: "So proud of u!"
7) Louisa. U saw me!
8) Jeanette. Erm? Isn't she on stage? Haha. Yea. gr8!
9) Kaijun. Thx for the non-stop encouragements u've been giving! :)

Yea, to RVC:
I'm just gonna say this once.
I'm just so PROUD of U!!!

Anw, ZINC!
You've done WELL!
We have faith in U and U did us PROUD! :)
You've given clear and gr8 instructions.
Done the choreographing.
Helped out lots to make sure RVChoristers are in TIP-TOP conditions b4 on-stage.
Encouraged us and drove us on.
U r the BEST!
So, SMI-LE :)

And tt's NDP '07 till we left our 'BACK-STAGE'.
Forever remembrance.

Now aft off-stage:
Ok, agn spoilt.
This time, large-scale spoilage.
And is cos of u.
Mavis, Ruth, SZ, I'm not angry wif any of u.
DF, YJ, SZ, QY, MS, YP, PS, I'm rly sry.

Specially to my 'bro' SZ:
I'm sry.
Thx for the sacrifice u made.
U gave up ur dinner to make sure I'm alright.
THANKS.
Oh ya, u must take care sia.
Get WELL soon!

Anw, the spoilage was quite short-term tho.
Thx to DF, SZ, YJ
And all the others who tried to cheer me up among the crowd
But I dao-ed.
STUPID me.

Thx DF for bothering to walk up all the way just to cool me down.
Thx SZ for the cooling fan. Anw, u brought it along? Ok random.
Thx YJ for toking me out. Ur theory cooled me down. THX.

Anw, my weirdoism is just due to my EMO frm U!
Not my anger at Ruth for mentioning.
Not my anger at Mave for jking.
Not my anger at SZ for accomplicing at first.

Ok, anyhow.
Aft tt had dinner at Raffles City.
Burger King and Mos Burger 'remix' dinner.
I ate both.LOL.
Supposedly to be eating none cos I no appetite.
But somehow bought frm BK le.
Thn Ruth helped me buy a burger frm MB w/o my consent.
HAHA! THX anw, Ruth! :)

Oso, saw a no. of RV-ians there.
Erm, Jonathan Ong and family? at BK.
Saw NPCC peeps.
And some others la.
Cnt rmb.

Erm, thn went home aft dinner and reached home at lyk 1a.m.?
Haha. No tiring feel, just joy.

Haiz. Late le. have to slp.
NDP '07. 9-8-7. A mark in my heart 4eva!

3:00 AM

Saturday, July 21, 2007

NDP ob show 2!

Whoa!
Another NDP Observance Show...
This time not observing, but performing. lol.
OK la, quite ok.
Better than expected.
Can sit and stuff.

Saw my Pri. Sch Tchrs.
Whoo! Ms Lee and Ms Tan! (:
Miss you!
Haha.
Noe I was taken fotos of.
Getting fotos frm thm!

Thn, dinner.
Once agn, as usual, GREAT DINNER! :D
Fun and joy and stuff.
Special thx to all tt was wif me :)
Happy be-early B'dae! Jonneh and Ming Jun! :D
Anw, Thx DF! HAHA!
And YF! (:
Yea...

All the best for subsequent NDP rehearsals and actual Performance! (:
RVC, JIAYOUU!

11:50 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Haiz.. EMO

EMOEMOEMOEMOEMOEMO.
Woah, no wonder MOE is called MOE. It just make ppl so EMO!
lol. jk to lift my mood (tho it din work)

Sad, but dno why.
Badly affected by own probs and further affected by other ppl.
For myself, it's just those usual 'craps'

To Yujun:
I dno wat hap but I'm rly worried for u.
R u ok?
Pls be...
Praying for u...

To Yita:
You another one.
Said u were tired but i just cnt believe cos the expression is TOO MUCH to be tired.
I dno wat hap but seriously, if you need to, cry out.
You'll feel better.

To Zinc:
R u better now?
I'm sry for wateva tt i've done/not done tt cos ur EMO.
Pls do tell me wat hap if u can.
Anw, I'm glad to see tt u r better now tho. (:
Smile on...

Haiz, E.T. Indeed.
lol.

Haiz. I'm hell the sad la rite.
Hearing the cry and feeling the pain.
I'm lyk dying of this lack of life in me > to stupid thots > death one day...
Hope this day will not come 4eva... ):
Tho nearing...

7:37 PM

Saturday, July 07, 2007

:DDDDDD NDP Observance Show!

Best day since long!

Tdy, went to the Floating Stadium for NDP Observance Show!
Fab and nth else.
Best I've seen so far.
NDP has been boring for pass yr, similar stuff repeated over and over.
This yr, ppl, prepare to see the most zhuang4 guan1 de NDP!
It's real gd. Cant divulge more, see for urself!
U'll be AMAZED! (:

Other thn just the nice NDP show, my day was further brightened up BY my fav. RVC members!
They ROX!
*Anw, Zhi Ying was on time tdy. She was told to come at 3.00p.m.*
Ok, ya, as I was saying, RVC, u ROX man!
Woah! Honoured.
We are lyk 'featured' on the big screen?
Yea. (:

And some of my lovely RVC members: Yanneng, Dianfeng, Qiyuan, Germaine, Sizheng, Shuoren, Luohui, Cherie, Ruth, Mavis, Xinyi, Wenzhong, Zhi Ying, Adeline and Eunice! (:
Days BRIGHTENED by U! (:

Yanneng, Germ, Ruth, Mave and Xinyi:
Met at JEC at lyk 12.30p.m. for lunch and we were lyk toking while eating.
Toking bout fats and sex. HAHA! :D
Toking bout some INBAL of air. lol.
Joyous lunchy!
And thn went to sch tgt. Reached at lyk 2.00p.m.

Dianfeng, Sizheng and Shuoren:
My snr BUDDY and 2 jnr BUDDIES! (:
Funny, gay, cute, weird. HAHA~!
Nice la, K?
Yea, love thm.
Anw, whr is Tsz Kiu ah?
Out of picture leh. HAHA.
And Shuoren said tt it was TRUE whn df asked him!! OOOPS! Scandalous!

Dianfeng, Eunice and Adeline:
We are lyk sitting tgt as 4.
B4 the whole show rly started, the fun was all frm thm! (:
Laughters, carrying of umbrellas and tidbits. Nice.
THX to u! My lib (Strikers) and VP snrs! Owe u 3, lunches!
Luv u guys always!

Wenzhong:
Is just him tt has no interactions wif me tdy but did brighten up my tdy's life.
Cos of WZFC! (:
Haha. Made Yanneng, Jhawnette and I HIGH!
Yea.
THX, boy Striker!

Dianfeng, Qiyuan, Luohui, Cherie, Ruth and Germ:
Woah this grp highed me the most!
The grp of 'hatred', 'embarassments' and fun!
Wat the, DF, u gd, u spilled all my darkest secrets tt me and Qiyuan trusted you and told you.
Gd for u, I'll make sure I dig out somethng frm my brain bout you and spread! I'm sure there are thngs! HAHA! XD
Anw, ya this grp stayed on wif me totally frm the time the whole concert ended till on MRT home.
The dinner was nice.
One of the best dinner I've had.
But I rly BEG these ppl:
Those secrets stay within us! NO ONE ELSE!!!
Argh! I'm lyk pissed but not veh pissed.
Aiyo, just dont say out can liao.
Anw, THX!

Zhi Ying:
THX for helping me to get my drinks back in its perfect and unharmed states! (:
Nice of u!
And ya dont wry, I wasnt EMO la. HAHA!
Erm, I maybe just a little tired. + DF spilled my secrets so a little down perhaps. haha.
Dont wry, I wont hide frm u la, if I feel sad or stressed, I wont forget to tell u!
This applies to u on me too! Anythng tell me! (:

Dianfeng:
Ok, this is lyk a kind of grand prize la.
And he got it.
MOST FREQUENT APPEARANCE on the thanking list.
HAHA! lol.
Ok la, actually, DF, rly thank you tdy.
U've helped me lots in terms of RVC and my mood.
Thx for solving my probs on bus.
Thx for sitting nxt to me during the whole NDP Observance Show.
Thx for sharing the tidbits and umbrella wif me.
Thx for taking photo wif me.
Thx for gg dinner tho u are rushing home to do ur Phy TYS. lol.
Thx for all the laughters.
THX! to u.
The whole day wont be any brighter w/o ur presence. (:
U are my sunshine, my only sunshine... Ooops, so lame -_-!!! HA-HA!
But rly, THANK YOU!!! (:

Tdy will be more than unforgettable.
It will be the day tt I've enjoyed the BEST NDP Show.
The day tt gave me most joys.
The day tt I love the most.

All these are due to RVChorale! (:

11:44 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

Disappointed.

I'm seriously to say tt I'm DISAPPOINTED in the behaviour tdy.
Pls, RVC, we've made it so far, to such a standard le, I just need ur awareness tt discipline is impt.
I dont even mind if I've to instruct/ plead/ scold/ beg/ lecture and wateva to get u to be disciplined.
BUT, whn i do so, pls be DISCIPLINE!!!
I dont ask for more, neither do Zhi Ying!
We dont ask for a lot.
We only ask of u all to be in ur rows, to not tok, to focus.
But u all ignore us.
I just feel tt if u all can just be more mature and follow our instructions properly, we seriously dont need to be so harsh and strict at all times!
Lyk during this kind of Speech Day rehearsal. Be self-disciplined!
Ms Ek, Mr Chua, everyone is looking at us and u dont feel anythng lyk we shld be disciplined?
We seriously have no order.
And is not becos Zhi Ying din give any instructions.
She GAVE!
She told you all wat will be happening B4 we are lyk gg off to the hall. And can any of u tell me wat she told u all to do?
I dno, I feel sad cos indeed, Zhi Ying told u all to be disciplined, u all din bothered.
I just hope to see empathy in u.
Listen whn someone is speaking and toking.
I dont understand why must silence come only whn u get scolded?
As in u all just listen whn we are scolding.
We rly dread this.
It's not tt we wanna scold.
I rly want to see like u all being nice and all whn Zhi Ying and I just have to do instruction once.
Pls, listen to us and dont do ur own ideal thngs based on ur own will pls.
We rly need the cooperation frm u all. Pls, try to change can?
We rly hope to be lyk nice to the choir, jk, laugh etc.
But pls allow us to do so.
I rly love u guys! (:
But the discipline now is utterly unaccepted.
Anw, dont get too affected by tdy but REFLECT!
Tdy is just a stressed day.
But I rly want u all to listen and follow insructions.
U all just behaves more thn can liao. Yea.

Pls RVChorale, U all rox 4eva but be nicer in terms of behaviours la.
Jiayouu K! (:
Be nice and frenly 4eva! (: yea.

10:48 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007

THX Yujun and Eunice.

Tdy, still EMO-ing.
But now ok le.

The moment I woke up i smsed to Yujun! and Eunice!
Eunice's convo thru smses ended at ard noon but THX!
Yes,
Devotion lasts, devotion hurts.
I agree tt there's nth to do but to sit back and look at her frm afar.
Thx. (:
As for Yujun. Woah! frm 9.30a.m. to 10.30p.m.
Haha :D
*Touched*
Felt un-EMOed le.
Yujun's attribute.
He tok to me bout a lot of thngs.
Frm my EMO to the person hu backstabbed me and to our common illnesses.
HAHA! :D
Nth to say but just:
Thank you.
I'm now much lighter and less burdened.
Yujun, you must JIAYOUU too!
We shall both kill EMO!
HAHA!
Dont wry bout anythng!
Dont go into ur depressive thnking! (:
Rmb, my secrets safe wif u and so are urs wif me! (:

Real thx to Eunice and Yujun.
For enlightening me and drawing me out of my EMO.
Yes, indeed the one tt gave me most guidance and the one tt were once close to me and understood me. (: THX.

11:24 PM

Saturday, June 30, 2007

RVC JUNE CAMP!!!

Tdy is the LONG-AWAITED RVC June Camp '07!

It was a long and hard day for me.
I suffered a lot.
Knee extreme pain and 'hyper-ventilated'.
Eye pain and heart pain.
Emo and all.
All happiness turned sad and sour.

Ok, first, tok bout the CAMP!
It rox it thnk.
Ppl thnk diff though.
Some thot it rox, some thot it's not harsh enuff.
I dno, i just fear the untake-able of some ppl so it turned out more lenient this yr.
But the fun and all was there.
Mrs Tan said tt the punctuality was seen and it's well done.
Except for the Final Tanjong Beach.
Yea, it sort of sux.
But i thnk the area is larger and more to ourselves.
Pros and cons la.
Overall i feel happy cos i thnk it's SUCCESSFUL!
Owe all RVC members hu went a BIG THX!!! (:
RVChorale, ALL THE WAY!!

Ok, now bout my EMO.
I dno, i just felt physically and emotionally troubled and tired for the whole day.
The appearance of her feels wrong.
I felt sad and all.
I asked WZ to accompany me to toilet to wash my eyes and I teared on my own w/o him knowing.
HAHA :D
Thn, I was sad whn the camp was finally over.
Sadness everytime a camp ends.
Thn, more sadness and overwhelming feelings whn i bought my dinner and reached whr lots of RVC members were eating at.
It has been a LONG time since this kind of meal hap.
I felt happy but felt sad.
Happy for it hap once more but sad for it's gonna be the last b4 another comes along.
Yanneng was there.
Wif Eunice, Huaypeng, Yifan, Zhihui, Christina, Baorui, Kaijun, Minghui, Yita and Jiamin.
These are the Snrs! (((((:
Thn, there were many other sec 3s and 2s.
There were diff grps of ppl and a grp of EMO and a grp of SEX.
Extremism. lol.
Thn we packed and leave.
While we were walking down, we opened a new fanclub.
Wen Zhong Fanclub!!! (:
Wif Yanneng, the president, me, the vice-pres and jeanette, the secretary.
HAHA! :D
I bet WZ was stunned and amused. :D
We took fotos and stuff.
Thn we all hugged him and we left for MRT.
On MRT, the RV-anyOhow-sit-spirit started.
We sat and the platform and stuff.
Thn at JE station, Yanneng, Jeanette, Kaijun, Merwyn, Germ and I stayed ard a sitting area and we tok.
All sorts of stuff, FUN!!! (:
Thn, we bade Yanneng farewell and left for home!

A Gr8 and weird day.
Memorable 4eva.
Thx to RVC, love you foreva!!! The Wenzhong Fanclub ROX on! (:

Still EMO... ):

11:33 PM

Thursday, June 28, 2007

SYF opening!!

WHOO! SYF rox!
Loads of stuff and events for me.
A gr8 opening preview! (:

I was allowed to leave the class at 2.15.
Thn i went ard doing nth but toking to all my fav. RVC MEMBERS!!!
Thn we w8ed at the car porch for our bus.
And, we chorale were in a same bus.
The immediate moment i sat down, yujun tried to pluck my leg hair!
AHHHHHHHH!
Thn, we laughed and sang thruout.
FUN!
Thn, we reached the INDOOR STADIUM!
This is my debut arrival at the Indoor stadium! lol.
At the entrance, we came up wif the name: MITROGEN! Weird name?! HAHA! :D
Fig out urslves!
Thn, I chose the wrongest sit, BEHIND yujun!
He tried to pluck my leg hair even more.
Yujun, i'll get it back on you! :D
Thn, the show started.
Started off wif the Gamelan and thn the cheerleading.
Not bad, quite interesting.
Thn, the rock band.
Whoa, at first they seem cool and exciting but aft a while, I almost fell asleep!
It's too boring! Ooops.
But they did well la.
Nxt, more performance until intermission.
Many left for toilets or snacks but i stayed on.
Finally i was bout to leave and the show started.
It enchanted me to stay.
A girl of like ard 5 yrs old sang!
It was perfect!
Took an unprofessional video on tt performance.
Since the entrance tix stated: No professional video-taping.
Haha!
Thn, we all passed the msg round: do a Standing Applause for RVDS!!!
OH! We are SOOO proud of you! Dance!
And we waited on and on and finally it's their turn!
Nice and all. Well done! (:
Thn, aft tt it's just the performance.
And it soon ended.
We took the bus back to commonwealth MRT station.
On the way we sung AGN!!!
All songs, new old, Anything!
And finally we reached and we took MRT home.

Today was nice and fun.
Thx to Zinc (Mitrogen introducer), YJ (hair-plucker), Germ (funny as ever) and WZ (Cute to core!)!!! (:

11:42 PM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Wat a day!?!?

AAHH! Unluckiest day of ALL!!

First, got scolded by An IDIOT for folding my socks.
Yes, i did but the RV LOGO is VISIBLE!!! Wat the!
He told me to took of my socks to check.
Seriously, sch rule din say no folding but did say to see the logo.
I took tt effort to followed and wat is wrong?!
Forget it. At least it proved my saying tt he SUX rite.
Gd for 3I to realise! (:

Nxt, Hist lesson.
Ok, just a little scary..
Mr lim told us last term tt we r not allowed into his class for this term.
But we ignored his rule aft discussion and entered.
He asked us to explain wat we want and stuff.
Just as the whole scolding and uncalm of him was silencing down, he saw wat anyone noes will anger him.
3I were late and Ruijie and Ziwei were later! (Zilie was absent)
*SLAM*
The door slammed rite and a gush of wind HIT me.
Woah, scary.
Ok, thn alvina, explained to him on behalf of 3I and we were spared of more danger.
Thn all well and peaceful.

Thn, the Youth day-SYF performance.
Everythng went ok until the folding of tiers.
WEIPING!!! I'M SRY!
Oh, I injured weiping by accident but actually is some 'macho' man hu helped me by giving me EXTRA force tt slammed the tier rite onto his fingers.
Weiping, are you ok? I'm so sry. ):
Hope you are fine.

Thn, went we were in Music Rm.
I left wif SZ and walked him to bus-stop thn went back music rm.
It's locked and my scores are still inside.
So i entered thru the side door and locked it and unlocked the front door and exit thru it.
Thn i asked char to help me look aft the door while i go get key.
Thn, i got it, opened took my scores and locked the door, left.
This isnt the real unlucky prt.
It was until whn jeanette rushed me home and i DIN return the key!
My EZ-LINK!
Haiz, so i spent $4+ instead of $1+.

Last, on the 97 double-deck bus.
There was this NO taste lady hu screamed at us for not giving up our sits to a pregnant woman.
I'm seriously guilty and sry for being unaware of my surroundings but she doesnt have to scold rite?
I'm just so disgusted by her scolding.
But i've learned to rly be aware of my surroundings.
To the pregnant woman, I'm utterly sry.
To the fat lady, I sry, but control ur temper.

Haiz. Unlucky day, ends here.

9:16 PM

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Heart pain...

Paining... in heart... in soul... in spirit... in mind... in body...

I dno wat's wrong w me nowadays, feeling are stronger than ever.
I feel weak, real weak. The pain of love and and unloved is killing me bit by bit.
You appear just so as often enuff to remind me of u but insufficient to make me not to miss you.
I regret, a lot. Why did you even enter my life?
I feel stupid and unexplainable as to my pain and unsatisfactable love.
You came just so impactful into my world but a seen piece of glass just blocks my soul off.
I hope to chase you out of my life, my DARN life.
This feeling is totally inhumane, cruel. Why issit me? Why me? );

Nxt, another you.
You shldnt have even appeared in my life!?!?
But I accepted you with all my heart and soul and till now you tell me to shut up?
I noe I'm noob, noes nth. Maybe I suck. I thot thru b4. Hus prob?
Me? You? or issit both.
I dno, I tried telling myself to change.
I tried but u r making me more and more hypocrite and less truthful.
I once treated you like my best fren, my best brother. Told u all bout me.
But end up I've to hear frm ppl how u r suspected to backstab me.
I ignored those hurtful but true words and trusted you on.
Idiotic me to forgive you aft an OBVIOUS backstabbing tt I saw it with my own eyes.
I'm disappointed, devastated.
I nvr knew you would do such a thng to me.
I thot we r the best of frens. nvr had i betray you.
I've once and agn forgave you, telling myself tt you r just you for ur character.
You din want it either. But thngs and facts proved me wrong. I still went on blindly.
But tonite, though it's late, I've chosen to spent this time posting bout this.
Aft reading somethngs just, I'm gone, my hope for you r all gone.
I may remain the same to you but you noe u r u.
And u noe it isnt my fault.
I dont need the 'shut up' and the 'f*ed' to see the truth but I chose it tt way.
I could have long be carefree and turn thngs agnst you w/o having to be insulted by you.
But once and agn, I gave you the chance to do so.
Now tt it's a 'shut up' to tell me it's time to be wordless and a 'f*ed' to tell me thngs r over.
Fine, frm now on, I'll shut up and just stay as a fking person to you.
Rmb, I've given my best to saved this frenship and you broke it w ur own words and actions.
I dno wat's ur intentions but get this rite, TRUTH will come out one day.
Dont soak urself too deep into a pool of lies and hypocriticisms tt you may find urself stuck into, alone, one day...
[Perhaps I've misunderstood you, the words are not for me. But I've indeed heard thngs bout you agnst me. I finally sensed it, seen it too, totally. Thngs are getting clearer le. The words fitted just so nicely into the current you and me situation, thngs tt I dno, u noe and I'm given no chance to noe frm you, and etc. I had enuff of you. If those nasty words are for me, my post isnt wasted. If those nasty words are not for me, my post is even more not wasted, it is posted to warn you, those nasty words will nvr be for me. I'm tired being the Mr nice to you, the Mr meanie. For once, I'll be Mr clever and stop being stupid to forgive you anymore. Everythng ends HERE.]

Real pain and hurt.
Both love and fren. I'm all tired.
[W the physical tireness as a VP, I'm dying. 4 days slping at 2+am.] lol
I'm deciding to let thngs fade. It’ll stay and hurt 4ever.
I just hope tt thngs fade. I noe it wont go.
I've to THANK WZ for letting me say the BEST thng of my life.
Which is:
_____!!! I love you!!!
If only time were rite. Thngs might be diff.
Facts tt hurt me are revealed to me.
<> WHOA! lol. DUMB me.
REGRETS ever.
Ppl hu noes wat i'm toking bout, pls, a secret's a secret, keep it.
I thank you, the huever tt told me these facts, I'm grateful of u. U'll forever be rmbed.
To be utmost grateful to my dearest buddy, SZKoh, for appearing at the rite time on the day of 25th June '07 and liven my life for tt moments. (:

Loving you is tough but to not love is tougher.
Loving you made me find happiness to my life but added the worst hell on me.

Trusting you hasnt been a problem till thngs turn really bad,
But I kept my trust to you and got my hurt real bad.
All the Shut up and F*ed shall be rmbed as the hurts just stay,
And I just hope tt one day you'll noe tt you'd deeply hurt a fren.

Now, a tired person that wanna to stay just alone w true frens tt help.
Ppl tt hates me, stop ur hypocriticisms and leave my life. Back to wat it used to be.
I hate all these, I'm ruined. I'm sad. I'm but not emo.

P.S. True caring frens of mine hu read this, I'm alrite but saying this out makes me feel even better. Dont be to freaked out. I'm just fine...

10:26 PM

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Camp '07 DRY-RUN!!!

Whoa! Tiring day. Fun though.

Haha, thot tt it's boring and wateva at first but GUESS wat! It ROX like OMG! as time goes on.
COMM! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

First, we met up at Harbourfront MRT Station control.
Thn, Zinc arrived at 8?!?! Supposed to meet at like 9. HAAH~!
Thn, germ, char, jonneh and I arrived. Sry! Zinc, for being late! ):
Thn, sl came.
Nxt, yj, qy, ms and yp came subsequently.
Thn, walked to Vivo top lvl and bought tix to enter SENTOSA!!!
Hey, btw, some haven return me entrance fee hor! Haha.
Haiz, worst thing today is tt, Germaine lost her wallet but ok la, she's cheerful as EVER!!! (:
Thn, we took the monorail and reached Beach Station.
Inside Sentosa, I bought a pair of slippers. WTH lor. someone stole my slippers! SHIT!
But the design not bad la. ORANGE!!! Haha. :D
Thn moved on to find out tt one of the Sentosa's bridge was DEMOLISHED!!!
Lucky for a dry-run, or else, poor yujun and pengg. LOL!
Thn, had a comm meeting. Haiz, Zinc, we shall be a LITTLE less strict nxt time?! HAAH~!
Thn, we thot it was BORING so everyone went on doing their own thngs.
Thn, Cass CAME!!! HAAH!
OMG, dno why! Zinc suddenly said I gave her the DAMN idea of smearing my whole back WITH BANANAS!!! And she did it. LOL!
Poor me.
Ah, thn fun but tedious to tok about stuff, so i will not elaborate more.
Finally, funNEST time of ALL!
Lunch- Ya, 3+pm, LUNCH?!?!
HAHA!
Hungry but happy.
We ate at SUPER DOGS at vivocity!!! Zinc's recommendation!
P.S. Yujun, the food quite nice la... HAAH!
We were like laughing thruout the lunchtime. MAD? lol
LEMON!!! WHOO! Comm's FAV. Fruit!
We all ate the SOUR!!! lemons in our Ice Lemon Tea.
WHOA! Sour but damn funny!!!
We laughed, took PICS! And more LAUGHTERS!!! :DDDDDDD
Thn, we prted into MRT takers and bus takers.

Whole day, just FUN, nth else.
BEST OF COMM, FUN!!! HAAH~!
Comm, jiayouu K~! YEAH!!! (:

P.S. I realised comm most popular colours are: ORANGE and PINK!!!

Last but not least, THX for the FUN day, COMM!!! I love u all once more!!! (:

Committee '07/'08 EXCELS!!! (: JIAYOUU!!!

8:58 PM

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

BUSY!

due to POPULAR DEMAND!!!

I'm here to revive my BLOG:

Posting:

I'm TOO BUSY to post LA!!!

9:42 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Generation change..

Due to popular demand, from Charlene, Dianfeng, Ruth and so on.. I decided to post..

Ok.. wont post on lame routine stuff.. Tt'll be boring.. So thot of this interesting topic..

"Generation's changing... isn't it?"

Precisely the reason to the change in ppl's attitude ba..
Not going to tok out of wat i noe...
Just lyk in cca, jnrs nowaday dont listen to snrs as readily as we and the snrs used to...
Problem, big big problem...
Why is this happening? No root to problem to be said to be found cos it'll be involving anyone from parents to grandparents to ppl around...

Still rmb tt once, when i was in P6, my fren and i was at the LRT station when we saw these boys, no doubt from my impression, doing something very wrong...
They are from my school, P1...
We approached them...
"Can you stop doing this? It is against the law and moreover, you are wearing sch U, this is tarnishing our sch reputations."
"Are you doing it?"
"Of cos, no..."
"Then shut up and leave us alone, we are doing wat we want tt no one tt sees us, even my mum will say anything..."
(This sounds rather ridiculous, eh?)
"It doesnt matter who will stop you but stop doing wat u are doing now."
"Go eat shit and shut your mouth!" They spitted saliva and ran off.

Din think so deeply and much bout this at tt pt of time but only to rmb it recently whn i tok to someone, bout things happening around and it enlightened me to this very disgusting and ugly truth...
Tt's just an extreme e.g. to nowadays kids.
It made me realise as to the jnrs in cca now... sad case for snrs...
I just dont understand why are there just ppl tt dono wat is sad and ashame and wrong...
whn ppl tell them to do something tt's bloodily obvious it is rite, they just have a say of themselves and don want to follow... even though their say is hell the wrong..

Whn ppl tell them they are wrong to do something, they nvr reflect and learn... It is not wrong to be wrong... not wrong to blame but wrong to not be sry and remorseful...

They either dono bout ppl's facial or just aint concerned bout others and self-centered...
Whn ppl may look as sad or angry as they r, they dono tt they shld keep their damn mouth shut or to behave at least for tt period properly... tt's logic, shldn't it be?
Lyk whn they see their mum staring at them, shldnt they just do wat they shld? Or do they not? No IQ or just simply unconcerned?

Pondering... A funny metaphor but definitely doubtless...
Life for the older generations (my yr and above) shall be miserable cos the society around will just be lyk wat i'm facing now in RV whn i'm older...
Worse still, kids tt go around whn i'm old shall just be lyk aliens tt i'll stare at...
(Not at all my thinking but one tt i heard which i definitely agree wif...)

Nth can be done to help, is it? Perhaps just pray tt my thinking is wrong and hope tt things will change fot the better... Seriously, nth much really, just tt if the jnrs can be more polite and respectful wif fear but no hate, things will turn out good or even better... but all are just hope tt shall be tough to be fulfilled. Nevertheless, I wont give up...

8:12 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Explanation

Ooops...
just a post of explanation...
tt last post was supposed to be posted like exactly on the 14th... but stupid me didnt post it...
as in i just realised tt it saved as a DRAFT...
(No wonder Ruth say my blog's dead on the 17th and should delete it on the 18th... sry din check my post, just checked my tag, tt's why!)
o.O
Haha... l0l... nvm me...
AnywayZ, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!
Ppl, jiayouuz for a brand new year K! Studies well, health well, CCA well, relationships well...
ALL WELL!!!

*Sry... a little HI!... haha... let me HI! for now and soon i wont be anymore...
Perhaps last time seeing me HI! le...

1:08 AM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Let me go...

Detest- dislike, hate
All of us know that.
But do we all know what is detestful?
Perhaps not...
I am a typically detestful person.
Why?
Because I act as if I am so wonderful but in actual fact, I have been detested by many ppl for the past few months.
Not anyone to blame but myself.
Sometimes it came to me as to why am I such a stupid and hateful person.
Good-for-nothing is the answer, perhaps...

The feeling of giving up.
Giving up on myself, everything...
Perhaps, I should just QUIT, QUIT, QUIT...
Two things on my mind to quit.
Don't want to mention.

Just wondering if I should be now crying...
Yes, crying in my heart, perhaps...
Definitely not gonna be physically crying.
Enough of those.
I cried when I was being accused, suspected, misunderstood...
All that had happened and I had cried enough.

Stop all pursuing of dreams and LEAVE!
Go far away... LEAVE forever...
I cannot take it.
I know all are my fault but one fault, just one fault led to so many misunderstandings and led to today.

I wish I could just explain...
I did...
I wish I could be forgiven...
I tried...
I wish impressions will change...
I prayed...
None work...
No chance, no choice.
I only hope to turn back in time...
I can't...

*JUST RANDOM*
*Liying, Jiayi, Charlene, Yanneng, Zhenkai.
I miss you all. Wish you guys could come back...
If only you all were here, I will not be so sad...

*BACK*
I've changed. This is not me.
Let me go pls... I am serious...
I want nothing now.
Perhaps just the last bit of chance and consolation...

I am hurt from this for every second of my life that I am living.
Leave me alone pls...
Leave my life, my world.
They are ruined enough!
Leave me...
Please...
Just leave...

*Those who put trust in me and never fail to give me chance and forgiveness.

4:37 PM

Friday, December 08, 2006

Boring

Boring la.. Chickenpox at this time..
Sigh, didnt go send the choir members going prague off..
Sad tt cant go wif you guys but i noe you all will do well definitely!
No matter wat's the result.. You all will be the BEST!!!

Now back to moiself.. Sigh.. chickenpox..
Recovering? dono leh.. maybe ba.. haha..
Itch all over..
Hope can recover in time to go airport on tuesday to wait for their return..

Oh ya.. class chalet in just 10 more days aye!!!
Must come hor! 2domers!
Oh ya.. Mr Ang post a msg about subject combi on edulearn..
Nothing yet to do wif our class but just a msg to remind ppl to reconsider their sci combi..
Cos wat chem and bio will not entitle you into engineering course..
Phy and bio will not entitle you into biomed and some other medical course..
Aiya dono la.. nothing to do wif me.. But just a reminder to those wif these sci combi..

Sigh again..
Realise tt love is really not as simple as anyone can think..
I dono..
Perhaps my want to forget a love for someone made me fall into a deep and unrewindable hole..
For twice.. I've committed tt for 2 times..
I realise after all i'm still stuck wif her..
Back to her..

8:27 PM

Monday, November 06, 2006

Sigh...

Sigh... Sad...

That day, he happened to eat Macdonals with his family.

He thot everything's over until he step into the sad place...

He thot of someone... someone now so far away...

He put on a smile, a forced smile, thru-out the eating.

After eating, he went to Vivocity still with his family.

Sitting in the car, on that highway, he suddenly felt even more down...

Tt's the highway to Changi Airport...

A sense of anxiety rushed thru his veins under his very skins...

Anxiety to race against the time to reach the airport...

That day just went on sadly...

Another day, he was in BPP...

His father suggested Macdonals, but he suggested KFC.

He really craved for KFC tt day...

But as they enter the fast-food restaurant,

he suddenly realised tt wat he wants isn't KFC...

Is the laughter and the fun in KFC with some ppl tt he might no longer go with...

He ordered 2-piece chicken meal...

As he was about to eat, he thot of Zhijun...

Always peel a few skin, dip into the whipped potato and eat...

SM says disgusting...

Then he started eating...

He eat and eat, suddenly felt tt the skin is so disgusting...

What he felt all along before he started eating with tt group of ppl...

But he tried to stuff everything in...

He realised tt there's no one to shared the skin with...

No ice-war by Kelvin...

No laughter of Lerae, Zhijun, Sinyee and many others...

I REALLY MISS THE LIFE WITH YOU GUYS!!! 2DOMERS!!!

10:40 AM

Saturday, October 28, 2006

CNY's not far...

It has been a very long time since i last blog...

So much had changed... and, going to change...

First, my life at home changed.

My dad was cold towards me... a little cold...

Cos of my results...

Sigh... Dont wanna tok bout tis any further...

Oh ya... 1/2domers, rmb the chalet on 18, 19, 20 dec '06...

Must go hor! Call me or SM if u have any queries...

Also, do u ppl want an outing to sentosa or whereva in the month of Nov?

If want, tell me, I'll try and organise one... YEAH! WOOHOO!!!

Next, ppl leaving...

I cant say we didnt grow... can I?

We didnt become emo-mama! haha...

Maybe it's becos there's still a chalet ba...

Oh ya, I wld like to apologise to ppl tt cant make it for the chalet...

But there are limitations... Price, majority-priority, etc...

Anw, all the best to ppl leaving for NJ...

And all the best too for the rest!

Get into ur desired combination-class!!!

Lastly, JIAYOUU 1/2domers!!!

1durian...

Hold such beautiful memories...

2DOM...

Is our class...

3-ever...

Will still be happy and united us...

Ok, now...

1/2domers! Listen up!

We shall promise spencer constantly tt we're here for him...

Guess tt he cant take it le...

Maybe, tagging on his blog isnt enough... we can send him as much of our photos as possible, also, our video! & e-mail him often too! :)

Assure him our existence for him...

Spencer, u must JIAYOUU too!

We've all hang on so long liao, a little longer shldnt be a prob!

CNY is nearing... We definitely will let u see every single 1/2domers!!!

Rmb, we'll lean on you and you lean on us and we'll be okay!

Spence! U'll 4eva be our teddy!

Go on and kick all the way! Soccer team is waiting for ur return...

*We all take different paths in life,

but no matter where we go,

we take a little of each other everywhere.*

To all 1/2domers... CNY is not far away... Jiayouu...

10:34 AM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Maybe...

MAYBE

Maybe...

All in my life are MAYBEs...

I can only wish that

Maybe...

It will be different one day...

I thought maybe...

I have friends...

But I don't...

I thought maybe...

I can do well for everything...

But I can't...

I thought maybe...

I have what I want...

But I haven't...

What's past in my life are maybe...

What thot now are all maybe...

What's in the future will too be maybe...

Maybe...

My life is just...

Maybe...

5:28 PM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

BBQ Rox!!!

Today went to lot 1 and watch movie eith my sis... The Monster House...
Not bad la...
Then meet up with some of them at the mac...
saw jingyi 1st... then next come sinyee...
went to foodcourt... waiting for the others...
then went to arcade... play daytona and street b.ball...
then went off to wst mall to meet mel and des...
over there, some of them went to buy the foods for BBQ...
after tt, we continue to stay there and we persuade huiling to go...
finally managed to...
at wanting' condo, some of us played b.ball, some sit around and chat while some busying wif the BBQing the food...
then a stupid incident spoilt a little of the spirit there...
a stupid person put his specs on the ground right behind the net(the most danger zone, as it is the target zone for all the players) and happened tt i threw an air-ball(oops...) and the ball hit the specs... sigh end up nid to compensate tt idiotic guy $25... nvm..
but the rest of the bbq thing went on smoothly and happily...
Fun... best day of the sep hols so far... :)

12:34 PM

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Yo! Cool day!!

Haha... Today went out wif Zhijun, Sinyee, Lianbing, Gary, Yantong & Wanting...
Supposed to study... but end up study only for like 30 - 45 min...
Then we went to arcade... played some games there... Haha.. so fun...
Next we went to play b.ball at the b.ball court near teck whye lrt station...
Nice attire for gary and i...
Jeans for me and a 'waterproof' shirt for gary...
we played a match wif mixtures of almost all ball games...
then we play the game of horse... but change it to pig and gary... haha...
we played till 7.20p.m. then we left...
Tired day but quite fun... :)

8:18 PM

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Yo!!! Totally Choir!!!

Haha, quite happy... cos today ms tham said tt i am the only one tt sung in real voice for the very very high part! yeah! and she say tt it sounded quite nice... i think is fake lor, cos i find it horrible... i force it out 1 lor!!! haha... then she wanna me sing solo... -_-" lol... i cant make it de... and i think she feel the same way... tt's why she decided tt the whole tenor should sing...

oso she made me sing in the quadruplets(4 ppl sing, 1 from each section)! wat the! i think the sec 1 bass did better than me... and huaypeng, obviously, as for ruth she's a sec 1 and in comparison, i sung the worst ba... sigh... i've had enough of singing alone cos of tt time... when during the octect(8 ppl sing, 2 from each section)audition for 50th anniversary, i sung xiao3 huang2 li2 niao3 and i solo-ed tenor! cos not enough tenor liao ma... but tt is oso the reason for me not to breakdown today... cos i sung totally off tune for tt time but ms tham chose me! and yanneng told me tt i sung well... i think is a lie ba... haha... so i told myself tt i dont want anymore lies... so i must sing well and i think i did it, at least and at most to a just passing standard... haha... this is actually suppose to be a good news but...

Argh! looks like ms tham really dont favour me in T2... die die oso want me to leave... sigh first she turn me into a bass then after me asking her and she considering, she finally allow me to be back in T2... and NOW, she wants me to be in T1!!! omg! wat is tis lor... how am i suppose to teach Sizheng next time? like in Ubi Caritas, there is a part where T1 and T2 sing differently... how? haiz... oso do i nid to relearn my parts in karimatanu? and all the other songs? this is like crap lor...

Again, i must :') smile with tears... Yes, tears but still, it's a smile...

(P.S.S.T) btw, there's a new piece of score... ms tham said tt it might be used for next year's SYF... so scary... and Ubi!!! jiayou orh seniors! tt's the second song tt we sung b4 and now the juniors are going to sing it! :D

9:03 PM

Late realisation... and sorry...

Yesterday, during mr lee's lesson, he asked this QS... 'why is 2D the best class in sec 2?'
personally i do not feel so la... but i definitely feel tt our class spirit is one of the best... tt's wat i felt immediately... then spencer just appear in my mind and next i thought of some other cases of upcoming parting... argh!!! sad...

on the way home, sm suddenly said something about the parting thing... omg!!! wat's wrong wif him la! why he sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo irritating!!! sigh...

then at night, i suddenly realise something... i realise my love for someone... i kept on thinking... i told myself it couldn't be... but... all tt i can think of proven its existence... then i realised tt it's true... but why did i discover it only now!! at this moment!! NO!!! i tried to calm myself down... then i decided tt i should tell her... i msg her and she call me immediately after i send it to her... i thot she call me to tok to me bout tt... but she just call me cos she said tt she promise to call me... then she saw the msg and she got a shock? i dono... but she say tt there actually not a need to like anyone.. liking someone requires a great deal of pain... i agree, but wat can i do? I didnt noe tt love can be nurtured so secretly and greatly... so secretly such tt i didnt realise its existence, so greatly such tt i cant accept and take it when i realised it... love... so beautiful but so sad... like it but dislke it, taking it but also leaving it... :') smile wif tears... a tough but noble thing to do...

Today, nothing much... PE lesson quite boring... folk dance... but i count myself lucky to have sinyee as my partner... haha... :D then after tt we went for recess... after eating, jingyi say tt we play soccer... i joined in... fun but i seemed like a statue... lol... then we were late for class so we left for com lab... i walked behind all of them then they entered the toilet... so me and haoyu went on slowly... until we reached the com lab door, still no sign of any of the rest of them... so we entered the lab first... after a while, they came and tt fucking wong scolded them like shit! wat the f*** la... assh0le tt sasa bitch la...
btw, i nid to apologise to the guys... sorry tt i left w/o u all... i thought u guys will be back soon... so i left first... sorry... and thanks for tt nice round of match...

10:43 AM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Fear, sadness

Yesterday, went to the East Coast Park with my family at night... thot tt it might be fun... but it wasn't AT ALL...

when we were on the way to the beach, i was very very hungry but at the sight of the beach, i suddenly felt appetite-less... memories came flowing into my mind... funny to say, only memories of 1/2D.O.M. I thot of our start and times tt we've been through... the chalet, at sentosa, lunches(mainly KFC)... then it came to me tt soon it'll be the end...
i kept on asking myself tis qs, is the parting of 1/2D.O.M. something for me to be sad about... cos i dont nid it to be together physically... but spiritually, mentally, will anyone feel and think tt we are all "once a domer" OR "4ever domers"? will all of us still stay as one to wait for spencer? Will there still be 1/2D.O.M. soccer team? will KFC continues to rock on? i really fear... fear to noe the answer...

I felt scared... no one seems to be there for me to turn to... than Charlene Koh came to my mind... due to tt, SC came to my mind... I felt sadder than ever cos i remembered of the time i've had with the council seniors at the chalet... they've treated me wif care! i want to go back! Then i thot tt charlene will not be a good choice for me to turn to...

So i thot on... one by one they were eliminated... i felt tt i can see no one to tok to... then she came to my mind... Jiamin... i msg her... she replied... she advice me to let go of things... i tried tt but it didnt work... she say i'll have to try until it work... and she say it will work so long as i continue trying... i hope so... i really do...

i really feel sadness, fear and all... i'm afraid of darkness lately, tt day i slept wif my light on... yesterday i told my sis to switch of the light after i'm asleep... i'm mentally breaking down... i got the real urge to spend more times wif 1/2D.O.M. i really feel tt the spirit there now is very good... the bonding is strong... but the sad thing is it's NOW... soon it'll be a THEN... PARTING:new ppl come old ppl go... i dont like it but it's just tt way...

8:45 AM

Saturday, August 19, 2006

exactly 19 days had passed... :')

First, the red things that i'm toking about is not the red rings la!!! aiyo... do i look THAT power-hunger? Yes, i want to be PB exco... Yes, be RVC pres... but dont have them will not make me sad... and hor how come u guys cant infer? i mentioned tat i want to be wat i USED to be... meaning now all i hope is to get back the green rings la... lol...

OK, nvm bout tat... toking bout yesterday, i was quite sad... cos there r ppl once again leaving me... now 4 ppl? i look at one of them and suddenly tat person look so much like spencer to me! oh my... why is it this way... pls dont leave... i will really she bu de one lor... wonder when is that sea level is rising again... sigh... sad...

During CCA, i packed the Choir library wif jonathan(good job!)... so tiring LA!!! sigh, now still left all the scores to pack... tat'll take ages to be packed(according to mrs Tan) sigh... no choir conductor seems to want it tat way... no choice lor... haha...

Sigh, then today... went online, saw spencer's reply, short one... mainly to reply me the frenship chain mail... wif some things bout me being 2D.O.M.'s soccer team goaly... ok... short but heart-warming... not bad not bad... haha... replied his mail oso... sigh...

then some of the classmates went to watch movie and eat lunch at JEC but i didnt go cos nid to save up for the airfare and expenditure needed for visiting spencer at vietnam... haha... dono if can save up enough to go or not.. hopefully yes... oso not confirm whether can go or not... parental concern... haha... sounds like some formal thing... nvm... life goes on... wonder if any 2Domers still remember... mr luke chong's 'life goes on' suddenly memories flood my mind... sigh feel sad... always feel so empty at heart... sigh... anti-LG slogan 'life's bad'... haha...

(and oh ya... exactly 19 days had passed le... since spencer left...) :') Smile wif tears...

3:05 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

I lost it...

I lost what I've once thought i detest the most... I repented! I did! but no one noes... I cried! but ppl just ask me," I thought u dont like it? why the sadness?" I hate anyone who ask me that... but i cant blame them! cos it's true... but why i dont feel it tat way anymore?!?! I tried to avoid all those red things that came across my sight but i just couldn't help it!!! I feel like crying! Why!!! Why!!! Is this is my fate??? I got lots to take in... I feel that why not just heck about everything, pack and go... but where can I go?!?! How far?!?!? I feel totally helpless and no happiness... it's as if I live and laugh for the sake of living and laughing... for my parents... my frens? Or does anyone even care? I really feel tat I'm belonged to it, to everything but it seems tat I'm belonged alone... I really want to be wat I used to BE!!! I felt so 'embarrassed' when I see ppl holding those red things!!! Don't ask me why (I noe it sounds weird) But I really want and think I should be oso 1 of those ppl holding it... why is it always like this!!! I got back the chance to carry on and GOD took it away from me again!!! Why is the god mocking me?!?!? I going MAD!!! WHY!!! WHY!!! WHY!!!

7:40 PM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Yo! SOCCER!!!

Oh! whoa... soccer... haiz... it... ROX!!! oh my... is like so the fun la... :D but i very slack diao when playing, cos my first time playing it... then maybe beginner's luck ba, first time be goaly then managed to block around 1 to 2 scores... and managed to defend jingyi's scoring as defender!! woohoo! then they say i got special aura that make the ball go in a curve way whenever someone try shooting it at my goal... aiya... just my dumb luck haha... but so cool!!! going to play it more often... and (P.S.S.T.) lian bing and jingyi, stop joking wif me la... ME?!?!?! as you guys goaly?!?!?! i think will make you guys lose until cannot lose anymore lor... haha... icant make it de, at least for the time being... haha :D... anyway, thanks lianbing! for giving me a chance to be your goaly! and gary! for letting me as a defender in replace of u for a while... and of course, jingyi, for your rousing encouragement!!! haha... yo! 2D.O.M. soccer team JIAYOU orh!!! you guys can be the BEST team!!! oso, it's the best P.E. ever!!! Soccer rox on on 4eva!!! woohoo!!!

7:19 PM

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Sian...

sigh... life is so boring... even blogging lost its fun... sigh... nothing could lift my mood leh... sigh... dono why, feel like dying sia... is like so sian... might as well die and fly up to the sky... sigh...

12 days had past... sigh, read his blog... is so saddening... oh my... spencer must hang on and jiayou leh!!! mel said tat the budget airline to visit spencer is like S$30+ to S$4o+... oh my!!! i'm going to save and go and visit him!!! haha... i so high but so down cos of his post... spencer, u r not in darkness... u can make it de!!! walk out of it into light!!! we will be there to support U!!! ah!!!! jiayou orh!!!!!!!!!! 2 d.o.m. is there for u 4eva!!! yeah!!!

3:05 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Finally

Finally, I managed to not like her anymore! great thanks to spencer... cos due to my own will to forget her+the missing of spencer for one+ week, i managed to discover tat i don't like her le... sigh... I'm really burden free le... first, no longer an SC, second, no longer going to be vexed about love prob! Yeah!

Sigh... taking off ring... stepping down... no more burden... sigh... still feel sad ba...

there's something i really need to say...
huiling, cool it down, u r hurting the ppl around u! i noe tat u r an EXCO...
but i dont see weiguo giving ppl attitude b4... he's still as happy-go-lucky as he actually is...
look at xinyi, being from nothing to a dep. chair and now an SC doesn't make have AP...
look at yantong, she still as cute(um...) as she actually is...
look at jonathan and gary, they are still themselves... they noe when to be themselves and when not...
as for zhijun and i, we r both guo4 lai2 ren2... we've once been putting all the burden to ourselves... tat's why we brokedown...
you have to let go some things... like there r a lot of time when u AP ppl due to stresses tat u assumed to urself... look ahead... this red rings dont follow u for the rest of ur live, but ur frens does... treasure wat u should treasure at times... i really cant take some of ur attitude and i believe a lot of ppl might oso feel the same...
like yesterday, when i jokingly said,"eh, still drawing ah?" and you replied in tat tone sounded as if u r trying to say tat 'u r no longer a PB le... u wont noe my stress' and said,"this is the teachers' day banner design LAH"
Do u noe how hurtful it sounded? yes, i step down le... yes, you r EXCO le... liao bu qi... very power me liao lor... i really dont want it tat way u c... it sux... I wrote this whole lot thing... hope u will understand at least 25% of it... it does not apply only to me... but to everyone around u...

ya... the regrets still in me... why didn't i noe him better b4... sigh... haiz... now no tear le... but the sad feelings just still there... wonder when can regrets fade away... or it cant...

4:39 PM

Thursday, August 03, 2006

03/08

first, the soccer ball was gotten back! but melissa made everyone promised tat they will not play soccer in class anymore so tat she can get it back from mr lee... lol... and i've asked william, SKYPE is a thing tat is downloaded and can call to anyone oso wif a SKYPE acc for free... spencer told me to ask william in the e-mail he replied... haha... i'm going to download lor... then like spencer mentioned in his reply, i can tok to him every night for FREE!!! haha... so cool! sigh he so nice his reply is so nice... sigh... but he mentioned something very sad... 'I think i've left something in sgp... no is 32 part of me were left in sgp...' sigh... so sad! but i replied and said... 'relax and dont worry the 32 of us, we will take care of one another and stay as 1 to wait for u...' we all noe... yeah... sigh...

spencer really must jia you over at vietnam leh!!! i really miss him... but still regrets in me...

i didnt really get to know him when he's around

and now tat he's gone

I really feel very sad!!!

sigh... :'(

he treated me very good!! there's a period of time when he always stay back wif jian howe and after they come back to class to take their bag, he will ask jian howe to take their bag to (canteen?) first and then he will come next to me and say," why stay till so late?" i'll reply," dono leh... do some stuff lor..." then he will sit there either we tok or we keep silent for like 15 min( at least) but he will definitely stay... i still dono bout tat he's leaving at tat pt of time... but after tat, i heard from many of them tat he's leaving to vietnam... and my heart plunged... oh my... sigh... he waited for me at sentosa when i was folding up my jeans (cos its too long, duh...) and he's the only one!... dont count sinyee... cos i told her to stay... therefore she stayed... sigh... oh my!!! sigh... regrets, regrets... for not noeing him earlier!!! haiz... nvm now can only wish him all the best and tat he will come back soon!!!

5:16 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

02/08

ah!!! today rendy went flaring at xm... lol... wonder wat's wrong wif him... sigh... then he suddenly say tat he wants to confiscate the soccer ball... NO!!! so much momeries of spencer is on that ball!!! sigh but he still confiscated it... but so bu shuang wif him la! sigh... after sch, some of them said tat they want to go jec to eat and i suddenly got that want to go wif them but i cant as i have piano lesson after tat... so cannot make it on time if i go and eat... suddenly very treasure this bunch of... um... haha... GREAT frens! when to com lab to blog... sigh... then after that rushed off home...

after my piano lesson, i go online again at home and i went online hoping to see spencer online... but didnt... then i saw his reply! he replied my mail! haha... so happy... sigh... then my dad came home then i've got to go offline immediately cos he dont allow me to use internet ma... then the whole night after tat, i was hoping that he could go out to fetched my mum so that i can go online to c if spencer's online... but couldnt... cos he chased me to sleeep before going out... haha... haiz... but i was blogging when he chased me to slp and i lied saying that i was doing some project!! lol... hah...

9:59 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

01/08

today, feeling worse, for me la... but the rest seems ok le... sigh... during com lesson e-mailed spencer, sigh... so sad... still missing him damn much!!! lol... i cant help thinking of him and seeing that his table is empty... haha... he left behind a roll of duck tape... sigh... me judith silin wanting, we use correction fluid to riet spencer's name on it and then we cut it out and paste it on his table... lol... after tat during cca still very sad... no mood but i told meself tat spencer nvr ever pon class/cca before so he wouldn't want to see tat we r so... like heck care bout everything cos of him... so i become more of my usual enthu-self... then oh my... when i went back to class, after cca to take my piano theory bk, i found tat the duck tape isnt there anymore... i ask chang lok(mind sports ma...) and he gave me some wierdo and unclear sort of thing... sigh so funny... but i coudn't feel more of anything else but worry... sigh silin, judith and wanting is bound to be very sad cos they forbidded me to use anymore of the duck tape cos they want to return it to spencer when he comes back... lol... and now it is gone... wif no reason??!!?!?! sigh... how???

8:36 PM

Monday, July 31, 2006

31/07

Sigh... today, on the way to sch, met sinyee... on the bus we tok about spencer... from 03/01/2005 all the way to 30/07/2006... sigh... sad... she teared, me too... then when i reach sch, i rushed to kwan ling's class to look for her to get the green rings... cos i forgot to bring lol... after tat, went to canteen stall 5, and bought 3 pakets of tissues... in the mind of lending ppl...

when we were entering the class, we dare not open the door and enter the class, to c tat spencer's table is empty... finally, we entered and it was far worse than tat of wat we've expected... the light and fan cant be on, seem to have no electrical supply... we sat there, still torlerating the tears... then yantong came in and she got a shock... she went to set up the OHT so as to provide light... but the light makes the whole classroom look even more sadder... then toking bout spencer again, yantong cried... tears rolled down her cheeks... then others starts to stream in... some oready crying, like mel, judith(half), lerae?, and etc. sigh... sad...

everything went on as normal(except that there's no mood and the room's filled with sadness, duh?) then during chinese, li jie said," ni men hai hao ma..." lian bing said," li lao shi, ke yi rang wo men xiu xi ma? hen shang xin la..." li lao shi said," shang xin gui shang xin, gong ke hai shi dei zhao zuo..." after a while of 'argument', she finally gave up," hao la hao la, ni men ba gong ke dai hui jia zuo..." then jennings took xinyi's pencil case and look at the photo taken at sentosa and said," ah! why i didnt go yesterday? my theory lesson always hai4 si3wo3..." at that instant second, i start to cry... all that i've tried to swallowed had burst out!!! i sob... xinyi and zhijun come and console me... but i just cant stop myself especially when i heard that even des and jw was crying... just then, yantong, wif sadness, tears all over her, she went up and say that we will send spencer off... i felt better immediately... sigh...

then during recess, we were trying to plead a teacher to let 3 ppl off from a course to send spencer off but he didnt and he said," no, no, no, i've got a class... GET OUT MY THIS ROOM!!!"
wat the wat attitude is tat??? please la... dont think u r a teacher u liao bu qi... then we went to ask ms chia kel-li to let us off earlier... and at the staff rm, we look for her and mr lee came out at the same time!?!?!? (coincident?) haha... and we ask ms chia and guess wat? she said," ask ur form teacher i'm fine wif anything!" oh my!!! ms chia u rock 2D's life!!! and in the edn she agreed to let us off earlier!!!

afterwhich, we continued the day as per normal... then during ms chia's lesson, we were so guai1 haha... lol... then shelet us off, we oready packed our bag le and we rushed off to meet spencer! mr lee helped us booked a bus($55 lol...) then on the bus, that stupid clock showed 2.30... and tat's when spencer said he's going in and we r still at ECP... we were so anxious! then we realised tat the time is faster by 10 min!!! LOL... when we reached, we rushed into the airport like some bunch of mad ppl? then we looked for spencer... oh my! where is he? then we saw him! we went up to him and wished him all the best and his mum requested to take a photo for us... after taking the photo, we gave the present to him... and as for me? haha... i gave him his HW for tat day... lol... actually is more of giving him the msg we've written on those worksheet...haha... wonder if he noes bout it??? then looking at him entering, walking past the 2 policemen, many of them started to cry!! sigh i didnt... when he's inside, we waved at him and he waved back... then finally, he disappeared... we decided tat we go and see his plane taking off... looked around but didnt manage to find the viewing place... sigh...

after that, we went to eat at burger king... and after that we go home... on the way, we were still very sad and i went to orchard wif sinyee to send my phone for service... then we went home... sigh a long and tired day... and oso the saddest day...

10:11 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006

30/07

AAARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I did not make it! I cried in front of him! After a day of tolerating, i cried! sigh... he consoled me... why did he do that lor... made me feel sooo bad... lerae was far worst! she cry until dono like wat... sigh, all melissa'a fault la... i'm actually not crying 1 la, then she said eh zhengyang, dont cry leh... then my tears rolled down... sob... so sad!!! i cant take it le!!! he soo nice accompany us all the way to je when he lives at commonwealth... lol... before seeing him entering the train back to commonwealth, we all hug him and wave at him... got the rash feeling to stop the train from leaving... sigh today will be the last day seeing him! cant send him off tmr, flight at 3.05... sch ends at 2... sigh...
1 funny thing... spencer said this to candy on mrt 'you say some more i beat u er...' haha, so cute! so cool!!!!!!!! but candy is very very sad la... hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahahah...lol...

11:36 PM

Saturday, July 29, 2006

29/07

went out to sch for cca sectional... lol, got trick to go... stupid yita joke wif me and made me go... sigh... after that went to jec to eat and go prepare the national day skit wif 2D!!!

didnt really do anything but only that judith cried cos she could'nt go to the farewell outing made for spencer on sunday due to some religious thingy??? lol... sigh guess she must be sooo sad... sad for her oso... sigh hope that everything will turn out fine tmr... hope that it will be good day for spencer...

9:43 PM

Friday, July 28, 2006

28/07

today is Sec2's teambuilding day... a sad day again... sigh... expect today to be not so saddening but it didnt turn out to be it...
sigh... the last day seeing my dear fren wear RV uniform... good? bad? good...cos he is leaving RV ba... bad becos he is leaving 2D... sigh...
we cheered and carry spencer up at the end... made a cheer for him... sigh, the saddest of all is that when i turn around, i saw all the girls crying, even vengyi, huien, louisa and grace are crying... sad really... but at least i saw more bond in 2D!!! sigh...

3:25 PM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

27/07

Sigh... today again is a very very sad day... due to SPENCER LEE!!! lol... sigh, haoyu presented the song 但愿人长久... this made us feel very down... cos it made us thought of spencer's leaving... haha... as usual, lerae led the crying... li jie made us sing the song for spencer and wanted us to record it...

after school, mr lee got a 2F pupil to help us take a class photo and the soccer team took a photo... the middle finger photo is the BEST!!! haha... anyway... i guess there are a few more days to be sad...

sigh... after that we stayed back to practice the cheer for the cheering competition the next day during Sec2's teambuilding... it turn out ok... sigh...

5:48 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

26/07

Today, we gave a farewell party for Spencer. Tears, laughter, sadness, happiness? All? Dono, I only noe that i'm sad and teary... We held the farewell party in class, ordered a cake (Mr Lee paid it...) We made spencer sang happy birthday song to the whole class... haha, he sang as if he is emotionless... so funny so cute( adorable, duh, but not ugly...) haha... I'll miss him...

4:57 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

sigh...

ok... to clarify, I'm really really not toking bout anyone... and r u thinking tat i'm toking bout u(hope u noe i'm refering to u...)? ok to clarify, i really ever thought tat u r AP but after all tat had happened, I realised tat u r ok, or maybe not really tat ok la... but at least we've made all things clear and i do noe tat all u've done r 4 our own good... ok, if u r angry becos i didnt tell u wat happened on tat day, then i'm sorry but actually i got nan2 yan2 zhi1 yu3... to be true i'm really very sad tat i lied to u... but tat day i just couldn't made up my mind on hu to help tat's why i help both... i did help u by telling u wat the other party told me and i oso did help u say good words... i admit i did tok bad bout u oso la... but like i said i was oso angry by wat u've done... now when i'm typing this, i'm actually "crying" in my heart... i thought u ok le but i noe u angry wif me... no amt of explanation from u can deny that... ok anyway i hope u get tis msg and u can forgive me... I AM REALLY SORRY... PLS FORGIVE ME!!!

4:42 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Happy!!!

Omg! Today was so fun! The speech day was tired but is so fun! We made it through quite well...
After tat went to JEC and at the library cafe actually want to do something more useful but end up gossiping hahax and is so the fun! Anyway, I've discovered something related to egg and cinema... There are great link in it... haha!!! And you wont belive it!!! nvm... lol...
Anyway, it's fun tat's all... But the tenor's and choir comm's prob still dont seem to be settled... oso 1 gd news and 1 bad news...

Read this for the gd news:
AP ppl are trying to change...

Read this for the bad news:
They are not changing enough...

Hope tat some of them noe when to be open and when not to... when to joke and when not to...
Listen to the seniors is not something wrong... but some just find it not right and step over them as they like... Pls for goodness sake... respect urself and everyone else...

Btw, I'm not scolding all the juniors... oso, this juniors include the sec2 dont think you are old enough to disobey the sec3... They've been through the most... They noe the best, the standard, the discipline and the attitude... So pls get my msg right, after reading it, reflect first before u try and defend for urself... And anyway, if u dont think u've done anything wrong to be the person i'm refering to, then take it as i'm refering to the others... The more u tok, the more it seems to be u. Show us u r not the one, not tell us... Anyone can say but not do... If u r unsure of ur own behaviour still after serious reflection, look for someone trustable or look for me!!! Get the cruel but true info rather than the kind but fake. And be polite when someone's trying to convey you a msg... ppl might misunderstood u so tok to them and get things right before getting angry.

Give ppl another chance... including the comm members of RVC... I noe many things had happened but just becos many things happened, the stronger we must be! Dont be rash and spoil everything in a moment... let ppl try to change, if they want to do it they can but if they dont, the anger and unhappiness will not make any difference to them but only to yourselves... so give others a chance and oso a chance for urself to be happier! Jiayou! we can make it de!

Btw, I would like to ask, is the choir going uphill or downhill? i really dont noe... i think it's up but ppl dont seem happier and comm are upset... why issit so? Or issit tat maybe my thinking is wrong, the choir is going down... Sigh i really hope it is getting better... Or else the hard work of Ziyi, Dianfeng and Eunice will be all wasted... They've tried their best le... Hope tat the RVC member will be sensible enough, stop all nonsense and start to grow leh... or else we might need serious trashout... Is the prob wif members, comm, both or some 'insensible' individuals?

Ok and finally, about me... Am i very fierce? Do I have serious AP? I dont noe but sometimes i felt tat i have... but no one ever say anything so I oso dont quite care but now tat there are those unhappiness going around so i would like to noe if i'm AP, in the hope tat I can change and not cos any unhappiness to ppl around me...
And bout me being fierce, I find tat some juniors r afraid of me... like they'll tok back to some seniors or even comm members but they dont do tat to me... Is it respect, scared or just tat they happened to be having a mood swing everytime they tok to other seniors???
If it's respect, then I hope tat i'll see improvement in them cos they should be respecting everyone, not to say the to the seniors should u show respect but even juniors, u must do so!... and I dont want to be holding the fort of respect as a lot of ppl deserve it more than i do... And if it is becos of scared, I hope tat u will tell me as i think it is a serious prob to not only myself, but to all those around me... I hope tat ppl listen not due to the fright of anything but becos they feel tat they should listen... but if it's becos of mood swing, I hope u can control ur emotions... empathize ppl and listen to them... Feel the same way as they do...

After toking so much, I hope u guys will change... and pls, this isnt a post to scold ppl, I emphasize it again, but is to tell u all so tat you all can be more self-aware and extra cautious wif wat u've done, said and thought... Pls improve on urselves and help each others to improve too! Make everyone's life easier! Think of others before urself... If everyone do so then everyone will have a lot of ppl thinking of u! And remember, chance are both made to give and give to made... Make others give u chance and give others a chance tat u've made... Only then will there be more happiness than sadness...

5:43 PM

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Mavis! Get this straight!

"I dunno wads the prob with most of the sec3 seniors lah...each of them have totally diff prob in choir lor...some are baised...some think tt they very "shou4 huan1 ying3" but they are not...some are sacarstic...some are just totally sick...while the rest rox???I dun care if they see it or wad...I dun care if ppl is going to tell them this...IM GOING POINT OUT THEIR PROB ONE BY ONE!!!first on the list-eunice...wads the prob with her lah???I mean...she scold scold scold until so damn dunno how to say..then suddenly she cry...wth...yar lah...discipline very big lah...and is there even any prb with sec 1?she vry dun care ziyi one lor..dun show respect to him...I mean...ziyi is the River Valley Chorale President k?voted by majority of the choir...wth...I dunno lah..Ziyi very soft hearted lah...I know a lot of ppl say he cannot lead...not fit to be choir pres...and blahblahblah rumours...I DUN CARE....I just know tt he is a very kind guy lah...he is one of the sec 3 tt rocks....next on the list-dian feng...I also dunno wads the prob with him lah...I only know tt he baised against sec1s'...he got ap..tts it...and I seriously dun like him lah......forget it...I dun wan to say liao...I only know tt sec 1 rox...sec 2's...some are ok...sec 3..hmm...oh yaa...at the bus stop...I was like whining like siao..then Ziyi was like asking me wad happen...then I was like....you3 ren3 qi1 fu4 wo3...then he was like...who dare to bully u tell me...I will scold tt person...ok...tts totally niceee....I will rmb tt k ziyi?I think he also know wad happen lah hor...no need say so much...then hor...mou3 mou3 sec3...ren4 ting4 is because of this bunch of sec1 tts why the choir is falling apart...wth lah...blame everything on the sec 1...think we hao3 qi1 fu4 ar?choir is really getting more and more sucky..." (adaptation from mavis' blog)

Mavis! I dono wat got the better of u... but pls think b4 u voice... u r slandering df and eunice... making even ade so angry and the whole RVC such "chaos"??? No one's toking bout u! Even the sec1 dont agree wif u! no sec1 complained except for u... wat does it means? it means tat no one find it a big prob but u!

U just go round misunderstanding ppl... Like on fri, 7/7/06, when ms yew said," Can the sec1 and 2 make it in time?" i said to myself," Sec2 should be ok, or maybe not all. But the sec1 is a prob." and i saw u gave me tat wierd look, but can u say tat u perfectly think u can make it? I'll answer for u, the ans is,"NO!". It's underatood why is it so...cos sec1 is not experienced enough, u see, and wat's more there's no proper choir prac or even sectionals! How can u say u or the whole sec1 were to make it? See my point?

Ok, as for," some are baised...some think tt they very "shou4 huan1 ying3" but they are not...some are sacarstic...some are just totally sick...while the rest rox???"

I'll ans u...
YES! All sec3 ROX!!!

My feeling...
Last time i dont think so... but after seeing ur post, i was totally disgusted! such tat i find all sec3 seniors are actually perfect!

As for like wat u've said,"I mean...she scold scold scold until so damn dunno how to say..then suddenly she cry...wth...yar lah...discipline very big lah...and is there even any prb with sec 1?"

Now I'll ans u...
Yes! she cried cos she's sad... not only she cried ba... i think ziyi oso wants to or maybe he cried, df oso, and i myself cried, the other seniors might not have cried out but we all jolly well noe tat they are doing it in their heart!
And YES! DISCIPLINE IS BIG!!! Cant u see even ms tham's totally, utterly, disgustingly annoyed?!?! I am too! look at the lack of courtesy and respect to ppl...
Oso, did Eunice said tat ALL the sec1 are bad??? NO! she mentioned clearly tat is SOME...

Now i'll tell u how i feel...
I'll just tok about," is there even any prb with sec 1?"
My thinking was actually same as eunice, SOME sec1, but now i think u've proven us wrong... u are AP!!